“Crazy people don’t usually know they’re crazy.”
Afterward, Nick admits he saw “Rashad” again. He is starting to think he’s crazy. The doorbell rings, breaking up their moment—and its Katie… oh, shit. Ironically, Sarah leaves via fire escape (like mother like daughter, y’know?) and Nick lets Katie in. They sit on the couch—distance between them. Not sure if this was what the showrunners were going for, but the literal and metaphorical distance here is stunning.
Katie asks questions, some I’m sure she’s been wondering for years. Nick answers them the best he can and then suggests they have dinner. A great moment. It is clear both of them feel very awkward by all of this, as anyone would be, but it’s nice to see Nick trying his best to get to know her.
Ron comes home as Patricia hears from Olivia her father kicked her out because she’s dating a girl. Ron counters that, unaware that Olivia is still listening when they go to another room, saying that she left in a huff. The girl is ten years older, has his daughter drinking and smoking pot, and they believe she stole money from them. Their granddaughter asks if they’re taking his side and storms out.
“Are you here to say goodbye?”

In his patrol car, Ben sits outside a house. A woman walks out, and Ben calls out to her. It’s his …, not ex-wife? Their conversation is insanely awkward, but Dana asks if he wants to grab a coffee. My initial thought? This is trouble, but now that I’m thinking of it, I wonder if Ben wants to ask her for an official divorce so that he can marry Ava and keep her in the country. Hopefully, it turns out that simple…
At the coffee shop, the two reminisce about their late son and the happy memories they have of him. And then Dana asks if he is here to say goodbye, but he doesn’t say that. Uh oh… I don’t like this. I know they have history and there are probably wounds that aren’t healed, but this seems like trouble. Ben, either let her go or don’t. But you can’t have both women…
At the park, Ron finds Olivia on the bench and explains why his son doesn’t talk to him. His wife was in an accident and the doctor said she didn’t have a chance. She remained on life support for nine months and his pastor told him to leave it up to God. Ron turned the machine off, after the assistance of a social worker… you guessed it… named Patricia. His son resents him for that. He tells his granddaughter he’ll help her talk to her father, as he doesn’t want her to lose him as he did.
“It’s genetically predisposed to be a liar.”
Nick and Katie bond, talking about favorite movies and what they love as they cook dinner. This starts out as such a high scene, cute and packed full of what probably many viewers were waiting for. Katie accidentally cuts herself and goes to grab a Band-Aid from the bathroom. On her way out, she notices Nick’s helmet from the service. She puts it on and stares into the mirror. The look in her eye is haunted as if she has seen war differently for the first time.
She takes it off, noticing something folded inside. There, she finds the photograph from the earlier episode where it shows her and her mother when she was young. Distraught, she storms out of the apartment and into her own, ignoring her mother’s pleas as she rushes to her room. She tosses the picture at her mother who is equally horrified and goes to storm out when she’s stopped by Claire, visiting to talk about the baby with her mom. Excellent acting by Grace Van Dien here; you feel every emotion that Katie is.
“You don’t deserve her.”
Minutes later, Nick is hoping that Patricia can get a hold of Katie when Sarah comes into the room, confronting him about the picture. He tells her he’s had it for years, and that he wasn’t sure she was his, or that Sarah didn’t want him to know. Sarah does not accept this and says he doesn’t deserve her. There are is a lot of blame going around here, some of which I think is more anger than anything. No one in this show is innocent. Nick has lied, Sarah has lied. Katie has lied. I think its time the three of them sit down in a room together and work their crap out. All of them are being unfair, giant jerks, put simply.
All of them are hurt, but the past is just that. How else do they all move forward in life?
Well, at least SOMEONE is having a good night. Sofia and Gabe take all that pent-up frustration and weird flirting up to his apartment, where we see flashes of HOT skin on skin action. Wowza. Can I get a show of hands to how many were waiting for that?
Our end music montage has started…
Sarah drinks at a bar, Ron brings his granddaughter to her father, Ben sits at his child’s grave. Sofia and Gabe are basically rabbits (daaaaaaamn) and Katie visits Liam. Gwendolina and Enzo make the best of being stuck on the subway, dancing together in front of the crowd. Make your own luck, kids. Adorable.
Meanwhile, Nick heads to the roof, upset. He begins to box when Sarah calls out to him. She tells him he should leave, and we fade to black.
WOW.
First, okay that last song was incredible and set the mood for an action-packed episode ending with despair. “Have you been holding back so long, so long? That’s the human way.” I truly think this may have been the best episode of the show thus far. Everyone’s acting was phenomenal and gutting. The music choices were stellar, and every scene set up for what I’m sure will be a fantastic last three episodes.
There is serious hurt going on for all of the characters right now (unless you’re Gabe and Sofia… rumor has it, those two are still having fun) and I’m curious to how they plan to resolve it in the next few episodes. Things are heating up…
I have my theories:
- Ben will ask Dana for a divorce and marry Ava.
- Nick will find out who this mystery man is and a secret from his past that I bet only Deacon knows. (Deacon is a shady mofo.)
- Katie keeps the baby, but how does her story change?
- Someone dies. I feel like that is a given, but I don’t think it’s going to be the most obvious character. I think our showrunners are too sneaky for that.
- Enzo continues to be the most amazing character, ever. (Okay, that’s not a theory. That’s the truth.)
What are your theories? Tune in Tuesday, as we’re down to the last three episodes of season one and you aren’t going to want to miss it!
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